Reasons for my Sudden departure, future of Lara.

Allright, many of you, (that is two of you) have asked whether or not i am going to continue on with Lara's baby.  

Truth is, i have had many money issues.  On top of that, my parents have been hounding me on my "irresponsibility" and "stupidity."  They treat me like a child, and i've found that its been sapping my creativity.  FOr the long version of the story:

Oh, a bit of backstory. I moved back in with my parents after i couldnt' afford my place. They charged me $150 dollars a month, for electricity. Recently, i got laid off, and spent all of my savings in a month, and told them that i would be short on rent, and i would have it after my first paycheck. HOwever, by that time, i had overestimated my spending power, and ordered some models online. (For presents) The models came yesterday. Which of course, pissed them off. At this time they had told me that i needed a new car. Over the next few months, i went to different cheap car places, like the small family owned ones. I told them where i wanted to go, and they'd say "no, we dont' trust them to take care of thier cars." They stook me to a corporate place, that was REALLY expensive, despite the fact that they gave me a 3,500 dollar budget. I got the clue, and stopped looking, since they weren't going to listen to me. I mean, really, the lowest car they had was 8 THOUSAND dollars. I figured i'd save up my money. However, they ask me if i woudl consider a loan to help pay for a car. I said i woudl consider it, since i just started my new job. However, a week later, their response was "we found a car for you. Its a chevy aveo, and you now owe us $2,000" $2,000, for a car i never saw. They tell me to buy insurance, so i start looking, and decide to price them with full coverage. Two days later, my mom's response is " I went ahead and bought insurance for you. its 70 a month. " I can change it at any time, but with them paying for it, i'm owing them more money each month. Money that i NEVER agreed to give them in the first place.

And no, i dont' see them as right. I ALWAYS knew comedy was going to be hard, thats one of the things i find so attractive. I've just been afraid of failing at it. I have no actual "additon" to the PC. I'm not it like now, surfing news stories, and the forums ON those news stories. (Mostly on fark.com) IF i'm playing games, its usually for an hour and a half at a time. The reason i don't work on my comedy routine more often is because i don't feel funny. I do feel like making fun of my situation with them, but i'm NOT going to write about it when they're around. I wasn't fired for lates from every job. My stepdad got me a job at his warehouse through a temp agency. Allright, fine. I just moved from my apartment and had been looking for a job. SO i go to get one. It takes me 20-25 minutes to get me there. Allright, fine, i left about 40 minutes before that. (there abouts) However, there would be an issue where i would forget my keys or lunch, about once ever couple of weeks. I would be late. It got better, yes, but when i was let go, during the FOUR months i worked there, i supposidly had "ELEVEN" lates. AT the time, i could only remember FOUR. Have you ever had a job that would let you be late that much without saying "hey, stop that."

My next job i held about 10 months. I knew it was temporary, since it was for the busy season. (It was an air conditioning supply company.) I KNEW that it would end after the summer. You knwo what? it did. They had several job openings. I was late, yes, but it was 10-15 minutes away from home. I would leave 30 minutes away. I had 15 minutes of play time to say, suddenly feel the need to use the bathroom, forget this or that, ect. They bitch about the time i left for work becuause i had ANAL BLEEDING. They tell me "oh, you should have called us, since we would have told you that there was probably nothing to worry about. You were just wiping too much/hard. (okay, fine, that is what the doctor said) They tell me that THIS, and a late i had a month before when i walked in 60 seconds late. This wasn't the first time i was late, (nor last, if i recall correctly) Long story short, i didn't ge tthe job, out of 5, or 6 positions avaliable. only two of those were in my area. 1 of those 2 was for the reciving end, when i worked at the shipping end. ONe was in the shipping area, and i dont' know who got that. But i was up against liek 12 people, some with more warehouse expereince then me. Yet, somehow, it was my lates that made me loose the job.

I even asked, and out of the two positions, i was THIRD in line. THIRD. if they hadn't taken it, one of those jobs would be mine.

Granted, i bought something with my allowance money before they actually paid me. This was AFTER they loaned me 500 dollars for bills, and agreed to let me skip rent.

i was SO fucking scared about not finding a job, that when i did, i realized my allowance was coming, and i'm like "oh, well, you know what? I've always been wanting this one book, so i'll just buy it while i'm here. *cha ching* "Yea, that feels good. " I bought something else when i realized that i had a 10,00 discout off of my next purchase. They got my bank accounts, and went through it, adding up ALL of my purchases, and told me that i spent 243.00 over the past month on things like books, that i didnt' NEED. Allright, i gave them that argument. Then the chew me out, because i was being "irresponsible" that "i always do this" When really, spending is a way i can relive my stress. (or so i've figured out)

hen they tell me that i don't want me spending money at fast food places before work because i have food here, at the house. Hell, they got pissed when i got up late in the morning, and bought food on the way to the appointment. She was so irate that She in tears.

TLDR:  I can't write or post items, because i would be out on my ass, in the cold, if i do.  So, really guys, i am VERY sorry, but all this crap has sapped my ability to write.  I can't even post anything or i'll get screamed at some more, as the "cannibalistic monster"